Update

I went to my retinal specialist today to check on my eye. I've been going every three months because the vision is decreasing rapidly and he wants to keep a close watch on it. Not good news. 6 months ago, my vision in that eye was 20/40. Not bad for someone with a shrinking tumor and some radiation scar tissue. 3 months ago the vision was down to 20/100. Today, I'm not on the chart anymore. I wanted to lie and say that I could see the big "E" since everyone knows that the top letter is an E, but I didn't. I couldn't even see how many fingers the technician was waving 5 feet in front of my face. Bummer. It turns out there is fluid accumulating in the eyeball too. This is potentially treatable with an injection of a specific medicine. Yes, they actually inject a needle into my eyeball. It's a sad day when that concept doesn't really frighten me. I've had so many more traumatic things done to my poor eye that this seems minor. Can you believe I actually remember being terrified at putting in a contact? Granted I was only 13, but I've had to come a long way.

Anyway, we are going to hold off on the eye injection. It's still considered "experimental" and so we will just keep watching for awhile. If you all could please continue to pray for this situation I would be so grateful. It is so hard not to get down. I understand this is my reality but I also understand that we serve a big God who can choose to heal in an instant.